Loss
Something I’ve struggled with a lot over the course of my life is the concept of loss. I don’t mean loss in terms of a death or something along those lines but just loss in general. When I was much younger I used to think of loss in terms of death and losing someone you love to death but as I’ve slowly learned over these past few years especially there are different kinds of loss and and they all hurt the same despite the differences they all cause a significant amount of pain, I guess that’s also how you know those things mean or meant a lot to you through the pain there absence has caused still though because you cared about these things doesn’t make the pain hurt any less. It’s strange thing loss and just how much pain it can cause how it can feel like a part of you is being cut or torn away from you or how you have to cut or tear those parts out yourself which can honestly hurt more even if that’s what is best for you and you know it again at least for me it doesn’t make it hurt any less. To be entirely honest I’m not really sure why I’m making this post I think I just wanted to get that feeling off my chest as It’s something that I’ve been feeling a lot recently and it’s something that has been on my mind a lot recently. I’ve just felt this overwhelming feeling of loss these past few weeks and I’m pretty sure I know why and what’s the cause of all that feeling but that’s not something I really want to get into and I know the feeling will probably fade in time but still for right now at least. It still hurts a lot and feels very fresh to me. it’s an awful feeling that seems to be here to stay for the time being. Anyway, I just wanted to put it out there and talk about it a little bit rather than bottle it up and let it stir inside of me.
Anyway, until next time I’ll see you on the dark side of the moon.
-Zach.